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It's been a long time since I was on Backstage. This thread was suggested to me today as something to look at to potentially help me out because I just recently had an IC/OOC issue too. Thank you for starting this thread where others can see, and for everyone else for posting such a variety of feedback. There's a great deal here I will endeavor to keep in mind.
I'd like to offer my thoughts too, because the event I experienced pushed me to where I almost quit EVE entirely, which would have been sad for me. You don't sound like you're at that point, but even so it's not something I'd wish on other people.
- There is too much of OOC me in IC Katrina's personality. When someone attacks her, it bleeds through.
I can appreciate where you're coming from. I just can't fathom
not being at least partially close to Sak. If I can't empathize with what she's going through, how will I ever know how she would realistically react? Maybe this also has something to do with the fact I still feel like an RP n00b after a year and a half of RPing, who knows.
But the downside to investing in your character is definitely that things bleed through. If Sakaane is pissed, I'm often pissed too. If she's hurting, I'm hurting. On the other hand, when she's happy, I'm happy too, and generally, she's happy a lot, so maybe I've found some of that escapism you're looking for. But I can (and do) push the envelope with her, where she feels fine but I feel a little guilty about something she did. So, really, ultimately Kat is
your character. Play her how it feels natural for you to play her, even if that means adjusting some of her established mannerisms to make it easier or more fun for you going forward. If you can only go so far with her before drawing the line, that's perfectly fine.
Dealing with bleedthrough takes practice, as I've learned. You may not be able to ever get rid of it. Most people want to be liked and accepted by everyone else, perhaps particularly by other players we admire (or whose characters we admire). There was talk about "buddy-buddy RP", and while EVE isn't (or shouldn't be) a popularity contest, it's still a community. A community where people hate each other forever and thrive on conflict is something I feel goes against our basic nature. We wouldn't really form corporations or alliances otherwise, even though sometimes these things do exist solely because it's convenient.
But through conflict we usually want an outcome that is better than before the conflict, so an inherent desire does exist to get along. Yes, it is a game, and 100 years from now it won't matter, so try to have fun with your reaction!
- Katrina is being played as a well educated and composed Caldari, but I am neither formally well educated nor composed. It is difficult for me to pretend to be either.
Even though I've had only very little exposure to Kat I have to agree with everyone else: you do very well at characterizing her. There is a difference between being book-smart and having intelligence. Regardless of how book-smart you think you are, you are obviously an intelligent person, and that comes through to Kat. In my opinion I think this is much better than having her be a talking encyclopedia.
- I keep looking for happy-story escapism RP, where EVE is more about conflict RP.
Lots of people suggested private settings with friends for this. I'd like to add something different: use a different venue like IC blogging or writing an actual story. (Maybe you've done this already, but based on other's comments the impression I have is that you spend most of your time RPing on forums and in chat channels.) Happy-story escapism RP might still need a conflict to start it that Kat can overcome to achieve that happiness, but this can be conflict you create against yourself, so there will be no bleedthrough. Your friends can contribute by guiding you on how their characters would act within the narrative, but ultimately the one in control of the plot is you.
Flaws are good. Flaws make people real. You don't want to be a cardboard cutout.
When I was feeling my worst about how RP stuff was going, taking a break was the best thing. I only left for a month. I didn't distance myself from my character; I took her with me and distanced myself from the situation. That gave me a chance to think about everything that was going on with a lot less pressure to do anything about it, because IC she was also "away". It let me think more objectively about her, my own behavior through her, and what I could do about it IC and OOC. Coming out of it I probably have a bit more IC/OOC divide than before, but I'll always be invested in her. And I'm okay with that. If you can be okay being as invested in Katrina as you are it might help lighten the burden you feel. You might still fall on your face now and again (I fully expect I will) but like I said: it'll take practice. But hopefully you can still enjoy your character and her story in the meantime.
Hope it helps.