Svetlana, yeah....
Is there anything I could do to help you find/make/visit a corner of the EVEworld that was engaging for you? Throw a young and questioning Caldari at your feet, wanting to know how it should all fit together?
At this point, I don't think so. I love Eve as a game -- especially what I've seen these days, I think it still about the only MMO that really embraces the potential of the medium. But I've been so wrapped up in the story for so long that it's hard for me to separate the two now, and story and setting are a big part of what draw me to games. The fact that what I've written about the Caldari appears to be quite different from what CCP wants to portray these days doesn't help my excitement over the game either, considering it basically means I wasted a
lot of time on what comes down to mental masturbation. I love the stuff in the fiction portal, but it feels like there was way more effort put into making that really good only to have the metaplot (well, in this case Templar One, which I admit I only have people's posts here to go on about) written with far less effort put into making the world consistent and interesting. The fiction portal is only useful if the people actually doing the writing use it (and, preferably, have someone editing their work whose job is to make sure it is consistent with that information).
I really don't want to bag on the CCP folks too much -- I don't think any of them are bad people, and I actually think Abraxas, Gnauton, and Dropbear are good writers, if not always to my taste -- but the universe they are writing about one is not one that I am interested in much at all anymore. Certainly not one that I feel passionate enough about to want to devote a good chunk of time playing in and writing about.