Hello space friends, I would like to know more about how my character is seen and interpreted in new Eden.http://backstage.eve-inspiracy.com/index.php?topic=4869.0
is her 'bio' page for some background.
Ayallah is a character who is currently between two opposing points, she is very hard to get down as to where exactly her loyalties lie and up to this point this has been intentional.
Her main conflict for the last 2.5 years has been her loyalties to god, empire, her people, the tribes etc.
From this point on, it will not be. Ayallah has always been closet-loyal to the faith but obviously has questionable and possibly heretical permutations she picked up in the years since the Minmatar picked her up on Mekhios. They tortured her, tried to break her. She persevered and kept her faith if it was warped beyond recognition still has yet to be fully explored IC. Her vocal support of Shakor and the Tribal government has always been contrasted with how she is herself an outsider, she has been unable to fit in with the Matari or see eye to eye with almost any of them. Her insane pursuit of god has been hidden behind a wall she does not talk about.
I keep Ayallah's story in my mind all the time, I know just where the woman and Kameira are, how everything effects her actions and I know her backstory. But no one else does, and it is time to change that. Time to move her forward.
I keep these things behind the scenes but if needed to, in this thread I will answer all concerns and questions. This is a chance for you to voice them and have me give you honest OOC answers to IC questions that she has notoriously never told a straight answer to.
I know that a lot of the contention not dealing with the character specifically is instead in the plausibility of her background. Please feel free to bring up any of those concerns, playing realistically and in accordance with PF is very important to me!
Overall this is an effort to move the character forward. To that end, I am going to give a long-winded bit of background so you can understand how she has developed so far:
I started Ayallah having no intention to RP at all, I didn't even know RP was a thing! I used to trade out reapers for imperators and my first losses in combat are to sansha rats with a coercer. I saved up all my isk to buy a maller and dreamed of one day buying a harbinger. I saved every mineral I owned to make an abaddon (never got enough). I picked the coolest looking ships and I loved them. This was before I was pointed to the summit. at my brother's suggestion, after my frustration with eve in the small mining corp he ran.
He suggested also that I join FW. A veteran of the sansha live events and a old player he pointed me to the summit as the best way to join a FW corporation. (he told stories of the days of PIE and UK). I RP'd some in the summit then, mostly I got ignored until I joined Pyre. There in contact with veteran RPers and now understanding that no, not all of FW is RP and that there is a very distinct art to portraying characters. It was at this time I started to like the idea of a slave bred only for fighting, my reasoning was very shakey but when I mentioned it to those Pyre people all that time ago they said 'oh like a kamiera?' I found the chron and the in-game item. I loved Amarr ships and it turned out eve online already had exactly what I was looking for and had given it a name even!
That is how Ayallah was born.
I gave into pressure from the then active minmatar RP group and did the crazy thing, letting my RP take me where it would I was soon all alone in TLF. I tried to make Ayallah a Amarr loyalist several times but ofc PIE wanted nothing to do with her. At the time she was nothing but a violent and confused woman and was not speaking like an Amarrian should. They played their part perfectly, Pyre played their part perfectly and Ava played her part perfectly. At the time didn't understand why, it meant that her character could no longer develop, I felt stonewalled. I left TLF very soon after joining, I was trying to solo pvp with minmatar frigate 3 and meta guns, no support skills. I was trying to RP a very difficult character with almost no knowledge of prime fiction. I burned out quickly and went to nullsec to taste some of eve war.
Those who RP'd with me back then will remember a lot of conflict, IC and OOC arguments about whether or not I could/should/even was; ...Kameira. IC and OOC conflicts stemming from my personality (I am a very blunt and aggressive person). I almost quit RP more times than I can remember back then. I am not a person to back down though and I certainly gave as good as I got. I went overboard more than a few times IC and OOC in these arguments but could never understand why I was unwelcome from the get go. I got meaner and so did Ayallah, I defended my character until I was bitter beyond my years. I argued IC until eventually people stopped trying to tell her she wasn't a kameira. I never understood why.
I got daily flak for being a flip flopper, it never made sense to me, I was just a new player trying to find my place in eve. It made no sense to my character, she was just pursuing bigger and better now that she had her freedom., seems like everyone wanted me to quit Rping. And I just could not figure out why.
But I got it eventually, Dame death hung over my RP like a shadow and I wouldn't ever be free of that comparison. As soon as he came back to the game it was like a light bulb of why everyone treated my how they did. It was much easier for me after I saw dame for myself to be a better RPer both IC and OOC. Slowly, my improvements started to do their work and my overall RP quality improved drastically. Now Ayallah is something of her own I think, people know me. And either from long arguments taking away people's taste for the subject or fear I will back up my claims in space, the protests have finally stopped. I finally feel like I am finally free to play my character how I choose.
Knowing how people saw me helped me change what I was doing, to be the player and character I wanted to be.
This is where Ayallah's character development has been paused for almost two and a half years now. She still is a demon in her own right, but not an animal who no one wants to play with. She is still a Kameira, she plays things very quiet now though ...experience has taught her to not talk about herself or her past. She knows quite a bit about the republic (reflection of my IRL lore digestion), She is very well versed on how it works. But she still has no voluval and still isn't welcome in the republic. She has always followed Jamyl but was content with keeping the religion to herself and doing what she wanted. She has been openly supportive both of Tribal government and against slavery while still defending the Amarr faith and her idol Jamyl. She lives in the contradiction, saying almost nothing about herself when she speaks about either. All of this stems from the response I got initially, Ayallah wasn't going to be tied to anything anymore. My gameplay was better, Ayallah was easier to play but she still was in 'phase 2' of my character development plan. Two and a half years after I had planned to move her forward.
Until the death of Jamyl.
Now I am as certain of my character as I ever have been, I have not retconned or changed anything about her backstory still, but a lot of it remains still completely unexplored. The whole mountain of her character development is in front of her and I have been stuck in a three foot hole for two years right in front of it. She still sits on that fence, the Amarrians and Minmatar both wondering on which side she really is. Her still going right for the throat of anyone who suggests a single thing about her she doesn't want spoken.
Please tell me what your characters think of Ayallah, tell me what your impression of her backstory as you/your character knows it. Tell me what I can do better to RP a Kameira and RP better. I aim for realism within the eve universe and trying to play something deep and high-quality. I am interested in if who she is comes across in how I portray her. Both IC and OOC. Critical responses are welcome, I am looking to improve both as a RPer and actor and also looking to improve Ayallah, make who she is more clear. I know this is a bag of worms to open but do not worry about hurting my feelings! I know I have been a massive asshole IRL before I know that Ayallah can be a bitch. If you feel that is the main failings of the character or my portrayal go ahead and let me know. Again, I not going have hurt feelings or lash out cause you thought the biggest block in RPing with Aya was me IRL or something. I want the truth.
I do promise that I am going to read all your feedback and try my very best to better portray Ayallah and facilitate good RP. There is feedback in the character thread as well and it is welcome there also, but please keep it more about how I can improve her background in that thread. This one is more about how I can improve how she talks, walks and acts. Also please let me know if she has improved or worsened in the 3 years or so I have been playing her and how, I want to know if I am going in the right direction. I want to play her like she and new eden are real and I want to everyone to feel that same way as well.
So begins the long planned 'phase 3,' my Nyx is packed and ready. ..But I need a compass to see how far off course I may have come, to see just who Ayallah is through everyone else's eyes. hopefully you guys can be that compass. Good bad and ugly I love every single RPer and what they add to the tapestry of new eden, even the napulius and diana kims. I love just how much of my gameplay, my character has developed from the influence of others. I wouldn't change a single thing about everything we have all gone through together. Just look at where we are now!
I have a real live kameira and her name is Ayallah, ...what do you think of her?