Hey, Nikita. I can probably understand what you're going through after having to take in all those comments from that thread. I also respect that you're attempting to work with that criticism in some way, to change your character in some form. But, I have a feeling you're not going to like me regardless after this post.
First, while I'm not going to try to dictate how you should roleplay, I would like to point out a few things. During the course of the Sansha event, we had a couple others falling under the 'viral assimilation' angle, with different people taking different directions with it... you know Nikiruu and ECHAeries stand out among them.
While I'm sure everyone can perhaps experiance it differently, I've always thought from a non-Borg entity like Sansha, but still ruling that in some form possess a 'hive mind' (which I don't even think the Sansha roleplayers are even refuting), I would imagine the transition via this method would be less hostile or maleviolent in nature. It would try to rationalize everything that is happening to you as 'right', and coaxing you into feeling that its something wonderful happening. In a creepy sort of
'It alllll makes sense now... I understand." way. Afterall, if players non-Sansha, and Sansha alike, believe there is a hive mind controlled by Kuvakei (or True Slave Kuvakei proxy), it is within PF to be transmitted these thoughts as he was considered to be both 'charismatic' and 'charming'. That said, I think
ECHAeries' log on the IGS is closer to PF.
Finally, I believe the transition would be painless. Reading stuff like
Caldari Torture Methods, paints such mind alteration in a different light.
Sorry if I got to be the one pushing more ciriticism, here.