I started Eve in late 2006 with a handful of SWG friends - and we were all omg why did we start so late ?/o\. I would really like to say that Lyn - my only true RP character, even if my alt does a decent RP hidden NPC behind her - was fleshed out seriously and coherently with a first premise and strong idea behind, like most of my characters tend to be usually. Of course, it is quite the contrary. I started playing mostly as a trial more than anything else, and was not really sure what I was going to do ingame. We sure thought to start looking for RP fast enough, but when I created the character I did not have that in mind. I had to make a choice between two things : cosmetics and playstyle on one hand, and gameplay attributes on the other hand. I strongly hesitated between Amarr and Minmatar ships when I started - and I started to really appreciated all the other designs later. So I eventually created an Amarr test character but I really hated energy management. I decided to roll up Minmatar instead, even if their frigs and cruisers (in the first engine) were fugly, except maybe the rifter. Because yes, we started with 900k SP and they were all specialized for the chosen bloodline and race.
When it came to choose the bloodline, and since I wanted to do a combat character, people told me to go for max perception and willpower, which I discovered later that it is not true at all for combat, you just need all except charisma. So, the only choice really was Brutor. I was not pleased at all by the lore behind, but what the hell, I took it. Grave mistake or not ? I don't know. But it eventually made me go look at the Ammatar side. So, we started in a little laid back corp where I learned the basics, and then we decided to launch into RP, at least in actions. I had absolutely no clue of the universe besides the general facts 101 about every faction and the timeline. The first thing we saw were the two biggest RP alliances of that time fighting in Providence against each other, Ushra'Khan and CVA. Since we were sligthly more inclined toward Amarr (for similar reasons than Samira) except myself with my dirty Minmatar, we picked the (right
) side, CVA, but it could really have been UK as well... So in the end, we went to live in Providence and eventually joined Aegis Militia.
It is mostly in my time in AM that I learned most of the things I learned in Eve. We were not even 1 year old and already part of the leading body of a nullsec vassal alliance of CVA, so we had to learn pretty fast, and we were really motivated. We saw the end of the fight against UK and took part, and then settled our own constellation. The first hints at what my character would be started at that time. Reading lore articles after lore articles and chronicles, I stumbled on the Ammatar quite easily. It was the perfect solution for my character, and rolled up with it. That's the only thing my character was at that time.
Near the end of our corp and our time in AM, we had to restructure and rethink our corp in emergency not to collapse completely. Being essentially a corp with a strong intelligence flavour, we looked deeper into the lore (almost went loreception) and found the SoCT. Direct hit, and we started to live in Kitzes and talk with enigmas. Or not. Anyway...
That's where all the troubles began for me. Lyn started to get so many conflicting layers of different factions that I got a headache that lasted for several years before being able to eventually sort all of this out. I had to play a Brutor character with that damn slave child ancestry (max perception and willpower -_-), and I am so glad that this ancestry thing is not shown anywhere publicly, or I would be pretty screwed. Adding to that the Amarr loyalist side. Then the SoCT allegiance lying behind. Anyway, my character remained extremely quiet in the first years, learning, listening, like I was, while I was also trying to figure out what to make of her.
It's mostly when I went to Solitude in the gallente loyalist fragmented side - they were pro Blaque, and I can tell you that the guy was slightly different before TEA - and that's where I mostly fleshed out the whole base behind Lyn : the little bookworm princess that didnt care at all for her demented mother of a Holder. The rest was done after in FW, and then in KotMC when I started to seriously get into actual social RP rather than just action RP (at last, I told myself after a few years).
Eventually that is the reasoning behind :
- I eventually noticed that a single faction was too much a constraint for my character with so many contrasting influences. So I eventually made her more detached. The Amarr were only the logical step for her after graduating as a capsuleer. It has then turned out to be a big strength as well as a terrible flaw. A strength because it frustrates the hell out of people to debate or discuss with people they have a hard time to put a label on. A flaw because you rarely get completely included in any group, and often lack a true loyalty to defend and have to find justifications. At first people have never really been able to tell that she was anything else than an Amarr loyalist (liberal), but I started to drop little hints of her true affiliation, especially while in KotMC.
- Why Amarr otherwise ? Because the feudal modern Amarr is something I find fascinating. I have always tried to emphasize on the modern side, where the Amarr do not live in a medieval society anymore, but a contemporary one like all other factions.
- Usually I play various characters coming from all corners, very different from each other, and this time it happened that Lyn got closer to me than the usual lot. Maybe due to the realistic side of the game, or politics. Or maybe for various coincidences. Playing an innocent naive bookworm was the original concept and it never really changed over time: it remained the thing red line that I always followed. A good amount of layers were added above what basically was her childhood and the core of her persona, starting with the Ammatar noble uptight upbringing, the SoCT HyCon completely fucking her education up, resulting in most her deficiencies and strengths to be totally reinforced to the point it became a hyperbole. Then the capsuleer history made the rest, the upper layer that you just have to scratch to see what lies under. The CVA PaxAmarria-CONCORD loyalties, the anti pirate stuff, etc. Things that have faded a lot since she left FW, and especially since the last events where CONCORD look like incompetent fools. Not a bad thing, provides drama, RP, and makes me get rid of one of her numerous personas.
- Why a noble ? To the point of becoming an Ammatar "holder" (<- please CCP, find a word for those someday...) when her mother dies ? The Holder thing was a big bet, since we had no clue at all on what nobles the Ammatar had. Actually I am pretty surprised that my bold move on that one managed to stay true to the Canon when CCP added the concept of Ammatar slave owners. I got lucky I guess, considering half of the other Amarrian vassal bloodlines. The Holder side basically strenghtened her vulnerability and her upbringing at the time, though now maybe I would have done differently. It also offered my a levy to deal with against Amarrian ultra conservatives, because honestly, I did not want to spend my time constantly playing the underdog while playing a scholar concept.
- I also wanted conflict all along. I wanted a tortured soul, that was inherently weak, and not inherently evil nor good. Lyn started like a sensible, promising young child with huge curious eyes that craved to learn about pretty much everything. I had to add something to make her actually want that, and make all of this believable, so I rolled up with the ultra conservative family not caring the slightest about her and a demented mother that only cared for her legacy, on a remote planet where nothing of interest happens. And I played so much with the idea that her entourage had to be only a shadow of itself, derelict, in Derelik (hurrdurr). It gave her incentives. All in all, it was a good start for a paragon character and I often toy with the idea of what Lyn would have become without the SoCT intercession. Probably a model of a liberal Holder like the spiritual child of Heideran and Midular or something. Then she went Macaper, or almost. Because it's funnier that way, of course, and the HyCon was the perfect answer to turn all this bright side into a completely fucked up grim personality: her genuine inspired curiosity turned into a hollow addiction to knowledge, her creativity turned into agitated random thoughts (like a torrent of incoherent ideas making sense only to her), her strong and endearing timidity turned into a complete asocial marginality, her naivety turned into jaded cynism, and being aware of her difference and the gap between her and normal people made her all bitter in the inside. Eventually, HyCon turned the natural balance that was inside into a twisted, chaotic unbalance.
- My idea was to not have a character fallen out of grace, but actually in a more or less state of grace at the contrary, with underlying tones of fake and insecurity. Lyn is hard to discuss with when reason is involved, but Lyn is also full of cracks that provide a glimpse of her true emotional self dating back to her childhood that she tries hard to hide under a shell of cold logic. Somehow, I eventually looked for a character that has turned into a total waste of potential, who could have become someone great, and has instead become something hollow, albeit sharp and keen for the sake of SoCT.
- Besides letting breadcrumbs about her true affiliation in the past, a bit like Silas did, I also usually try to let here and there hooks for people to actually pierce through the impenetrable shell surrounding her. That's something that often motivates me to play her.