So I just finished redefining Nikita as a character, and largely that worked, it fixed the massive plot holes surrounding her as a character, made her much, much less of a Mary Sue, and created hardlinks between her and the Angel Cartel, which is something I wanted to achieve for a while.
However, it also caused some major issues.
where I am is that nikita is majorly fucked in the head and getting worse, she has horrible nightmares, occasional hallucinations, can't stay focused on things, and is super duper submissive, to the point where she can barely make her own choices on what to wear. This is largely stemming from the fact that she spent the past 4 years being remote controlled, and she has no real clue how to make her own choices. Also, Nikita wants to prove herself to the cartel again, that's the reason for her running a corp, and that's the reason for her running off to stain. That's where I am with her right now.
where I want to go, well, rp wise, I really am not sure what I want to do with Niki, I want her to develop close friends, and have people to lean on. I also want to play out Nikita's mental issues in an interesting way, I don't ever really want her to get over them completely. OOCly, I want to run a corp, and I want to have my name on the map. At the same time though, I actually have a lot of fun rping a submissive character, its a trait I have IRL that I can never really express, so I really enjoy having a way to get it out. I guess that's where I want to go
The problems I am running into are:
1. Nikita in character's mental issues.
2. I as a person, OOC, am incredibly submissive, meaning that as a CEO, I'm really, really not well set up. I don't see this as a problem, I like myself this way, and I'd make a great director, and I'll do as good as I can running the corp, but I'm not sure if I really can do it.
so yeah. Issues, plans, problems, directions.
Please help.