He cautioned her firmly.
“Two point six billion. Perhaps a worthwhile investment if it had been sacrificed in pursuit of productive activity, Zenariae.”
The words rattled through her young head. Electromagnetic pulses stripping the shields on her Tengu were less unnerving, and it was one of those questions offered sooner as a statement and she disliked those most of all.
“Yes Papa.” She would not look at him, refusing to meet those eyes that she felt could peel the hull from a ship with a glance. She wondered why he had never become a capsuleer himself instead of compelling the experience upon her.
“That’s not an answer. My colleague at Zainou is keen to understand the circumstances.”
Zenariae briefly faced the eyes with a pleading innocence. “Yes Papa, um… it was a mistake?” In her mind she cared more about a dead Fedo than his colleague. She hated that man, the regular check-ups on her implants, the sterile, efficient laboratory and the creepy way he touched her neck.
“All too often.” The reply she had been dreading; the one that robbed her voice of the ability to respond, the one that implied more than it explicitly spoke and she had heard all too often herself.
“Yes Papa.” She was exhausted.
“A self-sufficient income is also long overdue, Zenariae. Do not expect my patience to endure indefinitely.”
“No Papa. Um, I mean, yes Papa.” How long would she endure his admonishments, she thought?
“There is one other matter …”
She refused to look at him, a stone forming within her heart. Rarely haughty, she could however generate a pouting insecurity and inflict its effect in total. Disarmed, he raised her face, gently cupping the rosy cheek with the reassuring hand of a father who loved his daughter. He gazed upon her and their eyes met, their bond transcending transient passions and they understood each other.
“This once belonged to your mother,” he stated, with the same measured and even coolness. His voice never changed and was one of the most predictable things she knew. His other hand meanwhile had explored an imagined pocket of space and time somewhere behind her ear, nimbly and expertly producing a small shiny object without her noticing.
She couldn’t recall the last time he executed such illusions to delight her, tricks of the hand to distract her from the mundane trudging reality that was their life together. Mama had long passed and was with the spirits. Their home, a station, bland and functional on the edge of obscurity above an uninhabitable planet was a warren of metallic corridors and warehouses, conduits of tedium burned into her mind. There were State endorsed lessons via remote link-up to otherwise occupy her and then there was Papa. This was her entire life and she craved anything more than this yet could not bring herself to hate it as much because of this man who had looked after her.
He placed a trinket into her palm, a fragile bracelet, golden, shimmering brightly with the hue of legacy and memory, and curled her fingers closely around it. The bracelet felt heavy and warm and burned strangely in her hand.
“Yes Papa.” She couldn’t bear to look.
He squeezed her hand firmly.